to whom it may concern please disragard the past three entries they were written through tears of self loathing and loneliness and are not to be taken seriously.

to all those i have hurt i am truly sorry for all the horrible things i have done and said, its over now, this whole charade is over the mask is coming off and im sorry for hurting you.

to my friends, i will love you always and i will never give up on you i swear and i am always here for those who need me.

to those im not friends with sorry i didnt make the effort.

and to those i love, i will never stop loving you

and to everyone: THIS XANGA IS DEAD! because im starting over the girl who started this xanga isnt who i am anymore so i have begun a new one find it if you want.

and to anyone who cares im not coming home till august 7th

Goodbye

this is my last entry till i come home ont he 19th of july im sick of all this bullshit

you are the biggest liar, i dont even know you know i hope your proud of all this, i dont know who to believe

if you want to talk to me call me

otherwise hope eveyone has a good summer

bye

-Kaite

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it


Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I am still waiting.........

love is a lie, and you turned out to be the biggest liar of them all. the worst part is i believed you.

do me a favor and bury the heart you stabbed to death and dispose of the hopes you crushed.

its finished i finally give up on love i thought he loved me and now i know i was wrong he pushed me out of his life and he gave up on us. so im done i refuse to fall in love again and im not going to get over this. if you read this i hope you find what your looking for the  and hope you are happy in the future you deserve it. i wish you well. i did this to myself i pushed you away and made you think it was your fault and made you believe i didnt love you and i wanted more and then you stressed me out, but its not true i was just scared of letting you in and letting you get to close and giving you power to hurt me anymore then you had.

i dont think i have ever felt more alone

you may think im being dramatic but im serious i'm finally done.

say what you will
but i tried my best
what am i to do
with this hole in my chest?
i fought these battles
with all that i had
and  there still not over
but the bleedings to bad
the war has turned colder
as i have gotten older
and the ones i used to worship
have shown their true colors
its a war i grew up fighting
silently with every breath
but i never noticed
the guilt fed cancer inside my chest
but mother knew best
or so i did think till the oppressed
became the oppresser
and my sanity became fleeting
because of the blance, left teetering
what are you to do
as the battle rages on
and the ice is getting thinner
every step that you come
the closer you are to winning
the closer you are to losing it all
and once the ice is broken
theres no choice but to fall
so will you drown in water of guilt and anger
or be saved by the mother who started it all
the pain guilt anger and betrayl
feel like nails
driven in to your heart
but now you just fight the silent war
and hope one day to have to fight no more

love is a fight for which you gave up your life
how long till you can live again?